Redemption Running

I headed out this morning for what needed to be about a 15 mile jaunt. I am two weeks out from the NYC marathon so technically last weekend should have been a 20 mile training run but that didn’t quite happen. But it’s OK. I’ll figure it out on race day. (the most famous of my famous last words).

I really had no idea where I was going when I left the house. I just figured I would run and keep running, ala Gump until it was time to turn around. So I headed north on City Ave towards St. Joes University. My initial thought was to either turn right on Belmont Ave and head towards the Please Touch Museum and then down Black Road to MLK Drive… OR… turn left on Belmont and make my way into Manayunk. I could decide once I got there.

But neither of those two things happened.

Once I hit Lancaster Ave I felt an uncontrollable urge to bang a west-hand turn. So I plodded on along route 30….. destination still unknown. In fact at that point the very words “Destination Unknown” popped into my head. And for the next hour, the Missing Persons song of the same name haunted me.

As I headed into Wynnwood, it hit me. I knew where I needed to go. I made my way into the quaint little borough of Narberth and I did so for a reason. Growing up, Narberth was very near and dear to me. My father managed the legendary hardware store in town called Ricklins Hardware. And I spent many many hours and days in and around Narberth between the hardware store, the neighboring shops and restaurants, the basketball courts, and the baseball field where I watched and/or played almost every weekend…. as well as watched 4th of July fireworks.  My father passed away in 2005 and I haven’t stepped foot in that store since several years prior to that when he retired …. perhaps even 10 years prior.

So as luck would have it, my water bottle was nearing empty just as I was approaching Ricklins…

I walked in and made my way to the water fountain for a quick refill. A few (very young) employees asked if they could help me. I just chuckled and said, “no thanks… I just need to refill…. and walk down memory lane a little”. All of the memories came rushing back. Everything looked and smelled the same. I walked around a little, exploring some of the nooks and corners where I hung out and played as a kid. It was good. It was all very good. But after a few minutes, it was time to move on. So I thanked the staff and continued on my trek.

Exiting the borough of Narberth I felt that my run had a sense of purpose. A reason. So I figured as long as I was reminiscing, I might as well pull out all of the stops. I cruised along Wynnwood road and did a quick lap of South Ardmore Park where I played Cadet baseball, then continued into Ardmore…… passed my old elementary school, Chestnutwold. (now a sprawling new school). I passed the school’s baseball field where my dad, and several other fathers built the first backstop by hand in 1970 so we could all play summer league baseball.

I passed the strip of stores that was once Herman’s (then Frenchie’s Pizza), I passed the site of the old Givens and Goldens supermarket, and Ben & Edies pharmacy…. and … oh look – Yearsleys is still there!

I had come that far so I knew I needed to run down Malvern Road and see the old house. Hell, I was ready to introduce myself and invite myself in had I seen any activity, but I did not. So I waved to no one , and I kept running.

I weaved my way up the Septa bus road, crossed over Darby Road, passed my old Junior High/Middle School and forged my way back home. This run has meaning. I found myself naming the old residents of all of the houses that I knew, and realized that I am lucky enough to still be in contact with many of them. In fact many of them may read this post.

It was a good day and a good run. Most of the free streaming consciousness was positive and peaceful. The couple of very random questions that popped into my head were:

“Why does Lankenau only get one L but LLanarch is worthy of 2″?

and …

“Lindsay Lohan, just what is your problem exactly”?

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Mighty Macs

This video was filmed by ESPN at the Immaculata University campus highlighting the success of the university’s basketball program through the years.

Check it out HERE

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IRONMAN 70.3 EagleMan

I am starting to look ahead to 2012 races. First on the list is Eagleman 70.3 put on by my good friends at Columbia Triathlon Association. Looking forward to EMAN 2012!!

More info HERE

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ChesapeakeMan Ultra Triathlon 2011 Edition

The words that keep popping into my head this morning are, “some days are better than others”. I want to give a brief recap of this past weekend’s race without focusing too much on what went wrong. If you are pressed for time, or simply don’t want to bore yourself with the details, here are the key points:

Decent swim. Crashed on the bike. Pulled out of the race. Checked into medical tent and was rushed to Dorchester ER in Cambridge MD. Head and neck CT and X-ray were negative. Walked out disappointed with wounded pride and a concussion. I’ll be back. Sorry, no long winded race report this time around. Need to look ahead.

All that being said, and now that a week has passed, I can actually say that I still had a decent time in Cambridge. My family was there. And while it can be even more disappointing when things go wrong in front of loved ones, you realize how deep their love and support is in times like that.

It was also exciting to hang out with friend and first timer Laura Pyott as she realized her ironman dream. I love feeding off of the energy and nervousness of those newbies.

And I also went into the race with a clear(er) head now that I have landed a good job with JPMorgan Chase in Wilmington. Oh and the shower in my building is about 20 yards from my desk making for very accessible noon time runs!

So now I look ahead to the NYC marathon, the Philly half marathon, and a couple of other races I may try to squeeze in there. But first I am off to East Stroudsburg PA for the Pocono Mountain Ironman 70.3 where I will coach and cheer our Team in Training athletes in tomorrow’s race. I’ll try to post some things on the fly.

Have fun, race safe, and thank the volunteers.

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He Said, He Said

Below is a recent conversation that has kept me busy with myself.

Self: You do know you are racing an ironman in 3 days, right?

Other self: Yes, I do recall such event.

Self: And why do you continue to do this again?

Other self: Hmmmm…. I DON’T FRIGGIN KNOW !!!

Self: Have you been training?

Other self: I’m sorry. Could you repeat the question? No, don’t. I heard you (me). Yes and no. I have been training. I have a good base and my health is excellent. The problem is I have been so preoccupied in recent months with my job search that I haven’t had time to do the necessary mental preparation that this race requires. And I may be a tad undertrained.

Self: I see. So what are you going to do about the situation?

Other self: Well, for starters, I landed a good job at JPMorgan Chase and will start on 9/30. So I can at least race without that hanging over my head. So the last couple of days have been a mad scramble to get things ready for the race…. bags packed….. nutrition nailed down….. travel logistics finalized…. etc etc. So now I guess I can close my eyes a little and envision how the next few days will play out.

Self: It sounds like you have a handle on it more so than you realize.

Other self: I guess so. It’s funny but I spend so much time talking other athletes off of their own ledges before a race, I sort of left myself out there and exposed on this one!

Self: You will do fine. Control the things that you can control and give the rest up. Race safe, race smart. Pay attention to your hydration and nutrition. Thank the volunteers and embrace the fact that you are even doing this race. Don’t set the bar too high as the weather forecast doesn’t look great. Just enjoy the day and race for the many people who are struggling or are no longer with us. You’re only goal should be to finish – and be happy.

Other self: Thanks, got it. But do I have to be happy the entire race? Because….. that ain’t reality!!

Self: Shush. You’ll do great. Try to keep people posted. It was nice chatting with you, now give our brain a rest.

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Can I Play?

I heard those words last night while I was outside doing a little yard clean up. It came from the front porch of the house next door where three small children were laughing and playing. A fourth child walked up and asked that simple question… “Can I play?” As crazy as it might sound, that question moved me and I waited for what seemed like an eternity to hear their answer. Finally, after a moment of contemplation, there was a quiet but unanimous “YES” from the other children.

I kept thinking about those words and how important play and acceptance are and what the answer to that question can do to the fragile emotions of a small child. What would happen if the answer had been “no”? Conflict? Maybe. Actually conflict might be better than a small child walking away feeling excluded and dejected. At least conflict still stands a chance of being resolved with a positive outcome.

And how many times does a person (child or adult) need to be rejected before they stop asking if they can play?

A good friend and high school classmate and teammate of mine Kevin Carroll has made it his life’s mission and has changed countless lives lecturing and discussing the significance of play and its necessity for people of all ages and all walks of life.

So what’s the solution? Play! Play often and play hard. Play with your family. Play with your friends. Ask to play with others and most importantly, if you are ever asked that same question, don’t hesitate. Be inclusive and let them play. Better yet, don’t even wait to be asked. Turn to the person on the sideline and ask….

“Wanna play”?

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What a Difference a Day Makes

Well, I am glad that is over. I am happy to report that we successfully made it through Hurricane Irene. Although our area was pretty badly hit, we personally made out very well with minimal issues. Ironically, on Friday afternoon, Ethan Zohn fired me a text message saying he was in Philly and wanted to know if I was interested in a long run on Saturday. I took a good look at the weather report and except for the possibility of some light showers, we weren’t supposed to see the effects of Irene until late Saturday and into Sunday. So, I figured …. SURE! Why not. I’m up for a run.

I met Ethan at his Center City hotel at 7:45 on Saturday morning and we headed over to Boathouse Row so I could show him one of my favorite running loops around the Art Museum. Of course we had to detour slightly to run up the famous steps and pause for a Rocky Balboa dance at the top before heading back onto the path to resume our run. (With another brief stop to touch the boot of Rocky’s statue). We resumed our run and had a typical Ethan and Steve discussion about everything from cancer to diet to endurance sports to how we can save the world to soccer to how nice Kelly Drive is to run…. And a long list of other topics.

Hurricane Irene PreparednessOn the return trek, of course we couldn’t pass the Art Museum without another trip up the steps, followed by a little push up and ab workout at Eakins Oval. Once done we made our way back to his hotel and I went on my way to brace myself for Hurricane Irene. Bracing myself also meant sitting at my laptop with swim goggles, swim cap, and a headlamp! I was ready!! The good news is we really did dodge a bullet. We had some minor water in the basement and we lost power for about 20 hours but all things considered, we lucked out.

And in reality, my wife and I ended up having a lot of fun with our own little hurricane party. We had a few cocktails, plenty of battery life to run the iTunes, and even danced a little! Of course I played DJ and added my own little narratives and twists with those dumb factoids like how the Classics IV morphed into The Atlanta Rhythm Section, or how Paul McCartney’s former girlfriend Jane Asher was the sister of Peter Asher, of Peter and Gordon fame and how Paul had written a number of songs for Peter and Gordon and then wrote “You Won’t See Me” when it was time to blow off Jane Asher…. you know…. rocket science stuff that the world can’t live without!

kelly drive 1The attached pictures and video however show the very area where Ethan and I ran along Kelly Drive. Areas of that path were completely submerged by Saturday evening and into Sunday. It’s hard to believe we were running on it just hours before.

kelly drive 2AND, today, Monday, is a day from the weather gods….. beautiful skies and 80 degrees. And the rest of the week looks like more of the same.

Check out this VIDEO.

So, goodnight Irene and I wish a speedy cleanup and recovery to those who were not as fortunate as I.

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Apple Insight and Hurricane Irene

So as if the earthquake earlier this week wasn’t enough to talk about, the eastern seaboard is now preparing for hurricane Irene. Our New Jersey shore community is among the many areas facing mandatory evacuation.  I am sending many thoughts and prayers to everyone in the path of this bitch and hoping she passes swiftly without too much damage.

On a different note, most people have heard the news of Steve Jobs stepping down as Apple’s CEO. To put it simply, this man is a creative and technical genius with an uncanny ability to relate to people – as – people. I came across a great post on the Wall Street Journal blog yesterday which summarized excerpts from some of Steve’s greatest talks and interviews over the years. Some of them date back to 1985 so it’s interesting to see the vision he had even back then. But I wanted to share a couple of these with you all. These are all from his Stanford commencement speech in June of 2005, although they are excerpts taken out of order of the actual speech. These are great and applicable to anyone in any situation. Enjoy.

“You can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.” [Stanford commencement speech, June 2005]

“Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle.” [Stanford commencement speech, June 2005]

“When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: “If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you’ll most certainly be right.” It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?” And whenever the answer has been “No” for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” [Stanford commencement speech, June 2005]

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Chapter and Verse

I realize it’s been a while since I have posted. All is well, it’s just been a rather busy time. Much of my energy has been focused on networking and trying to land a job since mine terminates at the end of September. I’m still not certain where my path will lead me or what the next chapter will bring. The only thing that I know for sure is that there WILL be a next chapter. Hopefully it will be written in a language that I can understand or can at least navigate my way through. I am working some good leads and contacts and my fingers are crossed that I will land safely. I have confident days, and days of worry and uncertainty. But all I can do is practice what I preach and continue to control the things that I have control over, and have a little faith on the things I can’t control.

On the race front, I am now less than one month away from the Chesapeakeman Ultra Distance Triathlon (a.k.a “ironman” for all intents and purposes). Am I ready? I always feel like I could or should be more ready but I think I’ll be ok. Swimming feels great. Running is decent, except for some foot pain during recovery that I am working through. I could use one more long bike ride which I will get next week. That should put me in the right mindset to taper down and get ready. My head is in a good place. I am both afraid and anxiously excited about racing, and that is usually just the right chemistry for a good day when racing ironman. Next up after that will be the NYC Marathon again in November with Ethan Zohn and then I am racing the half marathon on Philadelphia Marathon weekend, also in November.

I also want to share another little ditty. I have talked about my passion for music in the past. Not that I can play a lick of any musical instrument, (unless you can count some mean dashboard percussion or unskilled and ad-hoc drumming on just about anything that doesn’t move). But, since early childhood, I have been very passionate about my music. I have very vivid memories of dragging my mom to the local record store when I was very young just so I could score whatever latest album so moved me. And I was, and remain, one of those listeners who would don the headphones and get completely lost in every note while reading every word from the album liner notes. Which explains why when listening to something today I will blurt out some useless factoid about so and so who played such and such on some recording that I remembered from years ago.

So, with that passion for music comes a pretty decent collection of vinyl albums. Now understand, I don’t even have a turntable anymore so this collection has been doing very little other than just that: being a collection tucked safely away in the archives of my basement. But it’s a collection that I truly do cherish and would never want to part with. That music remains a part of me. But I had a good idea earlier this year. And that idea was to start to pass some of these gems onto my daughter who has developed an impressive taste for my all time favorite band – The Beatles. My Beatles collection (band, solo artist, and related books) is quite impressive if I do say so myself and that band more than any other triggers certain emotional buttons for me. I thought it would be cool to gradually pass some of these onto her. It’s a chance to pass on the legacy while still keeping it in the family, and giving her something to enjoy that she truly appreciates. So far, I have given her, Let it Be, Revolver, and Abbey Road in album frames so she can hang them on the wall, and listen. Even pulling them out of the archives reaches the inner nostalgia in me … it feels good.

OK that’s enough for now. Gotta run. I will keep you updated with news, events, and happenings!

Have a great day and do something randomly cool and nice for a complete stranger today.

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‘Amazing’ Therapy Wipes Out Leukemia in Penn Study

Merry Christmas to all of those diagnosed with chronic lymphocytic leukemia, such as myself. As I have spoken about many times before, I always considered myself very lucky because I responded so well to my chemotherapy treatments and hit remission quickly. That saved me from needing the next step of a stem cell or bone marrow transplant, which so many people have had to rely on.

In the back of my head (way way back), I acknowledge the remote possibility that my CLL could return… someday. I don’t believe it will and I live my life like it won’t. But that chance does exist. However, I buffer that notion with the understanding that treatments and protocols get better with each passing day and with each new breakthrough. So I rest very  comfortably knowing that “IF” I were to someday need follow up treatment, that the approach would be even better and met with more success than in 2006 when I went through my treatments.

I was aware of the below study as some of the best blood cancer research is done right here in my back yard at The University of Pennsylvania. The results of this study have now been released and this was picked up by our local ABC affiliate, WPVI 6ABC via AP.

And with this, I rest even more comfortably and confidently.

By Stephanie Nano – Associated Press

PHILADELPHIA – August 10, 2011 (WPVI) — Scientists are reporting the first clear success with a new approach for treating leukemia – turning the patients’ own blood cells into assassins that hunt and destroy their cancer cells.

They’ve only done it in three patients so far, but the results were striking: Two appear cancer-free up to a year after treatment, and the third patient is improved but still has some cancer. Scientists are already preparing to try the same gene therapy technique for other kinds of cancer.

“It worked great. We were surprised it worked as well as it did,” said Dr. Carl June, a gene therapy expert at the University of Pennsylvania. “We’re just a year out now. We need to find out how long these remissions last.”

He led the study, published Wednesday by two journals, New England Journal of Medicine and Science Translational Medicine. It involved three men with very advanced cases of chronic lymphocytic leukemia, or CLL. The only hope for a cure now is bone marrow or stem cell transplants, which don’t always work and carry a high risk of death.

Scientists have been working for years to find ways to boost the immune system’s ability to fight cancer. Earlier attempts at genetically modifying bloodstream soldiers called T-cells have had limited success; the modified cells didn’t reproduce well and quickly disappeared.

June and his colleagues made changes to the technique, using a novel carrier to deliver the new genes into the T-cells and a signaling mechanism telling the cells to kill and multiply.

That resulted in armies of “serial killer” cells that targeted cancer cells, destroyed them, and went on to kill new cancer as it emerged. It was known that T-cells attack viruses that way, but this is the first time it’s been done against cancer, June said.

For the experiment, blood was taken from each patient and T-cells removed. After they were altered in a lab, millions of the cells were returned to the patient in three infusions.

The researchers described the experience of one 64-year-old patient in detail. There was no change for two weeks, but then he became ill with chills, nausea and fever. He and the other two patients were hit with a condition that occurs when a large number of cancer cells die at the same time – a sign that the gene therapy is working.

“It was like the worse flu of their life,” June said. “But after that, it’s over. They’re well.”

The main complication seems to be that this technique also destroys some other infection-fighting blood cells; so far the patients have been getting monthly treatments for that.

Penn researchers want to test the gene therapy technique in leukemia-related cancers, as well as pancreatic and ovarian cancer, he said. Other institutions are looking at prostate and brain cancer.

Dr. Walter J. Urba of the Providence Cancer Center in Portland, Ore., called the findings “pretty remarkable” but added a note of caution because of the size of the study.

“It’s still just three patients. Three’s better than one, but it’s not 100,” said Urba, one of the authors of an editorial on the research that appears in the New England Journal. What happens long-term is key, he said: “What’s it like a year from now, two years from now, for these patients.”

But Dr. Kanti Rai, a blood cancer expert at New York’s Long Island Jewish Medical Center, could hardly contain his enthusiasm, saying he usually is more reserved in his comments on such reports. “It’s an amazing, amazing kind of achievement,” said Rai, who had no role in the research.

One of the patients, who did not want to be identified, wrote about his illness, and released a statement through the university. The man, himself a scientist, called himself “very lucky,” although he wrote that he didn’t feel that way when he was first diagnosed 15 years ago at age 50.

He was successfully treated over the years with chemotherapy until standard drugs no longer worked.

Now, almost a year since he entered the study, “I’m healthy and still in remission. I know this may not be a permanent condition, but I decided to declare victory and assume that I had won.”

(Copyright ©2011 WPVI-TV/DT. All Rights Reserved.)

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