I don’t need perfect. I don’t even like perfect. Perfection scares me because I know that if one experiences or witnesses perfection, its sustainability is improbable at best and more likely impossible…. If it even existed in the first place. Sure we all use the word pretty freely to describe some incredibly favorable and positive … “thing”, but unless we are talking about something that can be mathematically or scientifically quantified or qualified, then we are subjectively measuring that which is arbitrarily subjective and “measured” differently by each and every one of us.
So while I am the first one to recognize and appreciate something that one might categorize as “perfect”, I am also quick to shoot holes in it and prepare myself for that descent down the other side of the mountain after the (real or perceived) peak has been achieved. That’s not a pessimists view, it’s a realists view. Of course we can talk about the perfection of some divine being , state or event but that brings into play an element of belief, spiritual or otherwise ,which itself is quite subjective and interpretive. And in that vein you could argue that perfection just IS or just HAPPENS as part of some natural course of action or plan.
And after all aren’t we are all just imperfect beings living in an imperfect world making the notion of perfection null anyway?
I will take imperfection any day over even a veiled illusion of perfection. I love the imperfect. I can play rough with it. Take chances with it. I can’t break imperfection. It’s already broken. Imperfection is an acknowledged flaw that for me implies resiliency and adaptability. It speaks of a weakness that needed to be compensated for in an effort to overcome. It implies true strength. It implies acceptance of what is and a diligent drive for what could be. It implies survivorship. It translates to an opportunity to make imperfection a little less imperfect…. while always remaining imperfect.
I see imperfect people as fighters built of character who rise above. I’m not sure if this opinion was born out of my own leukemia diagnosis and my many relationships with cancer survivors and their families, or if it is just a product of the wisdom and perspective one acquires with “maturity” (whatever that means). Recently I have been fortunate to witness so many stories of triumph rising out of less than optimal situations with HOPE and perseverance being keys to success. And often times the common denominator through them all is choice. It all comes down to a choice that is within our control. We are imperfect – that’s a given. We are flawed – fact. We can’t change that. What we can change is how we handle our imperfections. Do we look for way to adapt and change that which is in our control while accepting that which is not. Or do we stand in silence feeling paralyzed about things we seemingly cannot do?
We have choices. We have control.
This weekend I had the pleasure of hanging out with one of the good ones. Check that – one of the great ones. Legendary triathlete
See, Scott Tinley is so much more than a “former Ironman World Champion”. Scott will be the first one to tell you that he struggled through that next transition out of competitive racing and into the next phase of his life. But the thing about ST that truly sets him apart is his ability to articulate the effects this sport has had on Scott Tinley the man and the effects that sport as a whole can have on mankind. ST is an accomplished writer and published author who always seems to capture those feelings that we all may have, but few have the ability to identify, let alone express in a way that reaches deep and grabs hold of something within. Scott understands the impact his triathlon career has had on sport.
His influence on me is even more evident in my fourth book entitled
Two Oceans Ultra Marathon – Part 2
Continued from Two Oceans Ultra Marathon – Part 1
OK folks, the countdown to the race day clock is ticking…. loudly. A few more pieces of the puzzle came together last week. Dumb administrative stuff like notifying my bank and cell phone carrier about international travel, etc.
My last long run is done. I don’t know if my training formula was perfect but I don’t think it was a bad one. My rationale is this; I have “faked” my way through many marathons with much less training than I have put into this effort. So…. for this journey, I have put in some great long runs and I would consider myself in pretty good marathon shape.
Am I in great ultra marathon shape? I will answer that question post race. But my belief is that if I am in good marathon shape, and I can be strong through the first 26.2 miles of this race, I will find a way to get through the last 9.
These last 2 weeks will consist of shorter but still some intense runs and a little cross training. But the most important goal at this stage of the game is to remain healthy, injury free, and in a good mental and emotional state to race a 56 KM ultra in South Africa with one of my favorite charities – Grassroot Soccer.
I know where everything is that I want to bring or pack and I will take care of all of that next weekend. I even found my Stand Up 2 Cancer / SURVIVOR buff that Ethan gave me which I had misplaced! Good karma has been restored with that find. I will also pick up all of my race day nutrition needs next weekend. All of my travel docs and details are in place.
While of course I am very stoked about this race itself, there are many things that I am looking forward to regarding this adventure. The international “fun run” the day before the actual race looks like it will be a blast and the perfect opportunity to run / walk / sight see with a camera. Although I don’t know about anyone else but I am NOT going to be moving very fast or long the day before I am racing 56 KM!
I have also made arrangements to connect with South African running legend Zola Budd while I am there. Zola has been very gracious and is looking forward to Team Grassroot Soccer coming to town. Thanks to our friends at Newton Running for connecting me with Zola. And I of course need to give another very loud shout of appreciation to Nathan Sports for their very generous support of Team GRS. You guys ROCK and we will be proud to sport our Nathan gear.
This thing is really happening…..stay tuned.
Two Oceans Ultra Marathon – Part 3